lunar.soliloquy

One of the fun things about being single is that you can have unrealistic expectations of your future partner/girlfriend and get away with it. And it’s all the better if you’re not interested in getting involved in a relationship at this point in time, since the probability of meeting such a person will be quite low if you place your expectations high enough. I know, laugh at my logic all you want, but I think it’s better to overshoot on the expectations rather than undershoot, especially since finding a girlfriend isn’t on the top of my priority list at the moment. I realise this entry is going to be seen as quite controversial and I’m bracing myself at this very moment for the flames and trolls I know that are coming, even if unspoken I know will still be there in the hearts of my readers. But the way I see it, everyone has their own taste and this entry should be by no means seen as offensive or disrespectful towards anybody at all, particularly my female audience. If anything, this entry should be seen as a reason why I don’t have a girlfriend at the moment, not that I’m trying to justify it or anything, but rather state that it’s not something I’m particularly interested in at the moment, hence the ridiculous expectations.

The reason why I keep this blog is because there are a lot of things on my mind that I find easier to clarify by typing them out rather than have them go around in circles in my head all day. I keep it open to the public because I realise that if I wanted to talk about these things with anyone it wouldn’t come out the same because I think quite differently when I’m around other people compared with when I’m in the comfort of my room by myself. I don’t think I’ve mentioned it here before but I feel when I’m around other people I need to have to process an extra layer of information regarding their non-verbal language like facial expression, posture and tone of speech, and respond appropriately to them. After this initial layer of processing I sometimes lose my train of thought and I just say the first thing that comes to my mind, which often isn’t the thing I wanted to say. Hence why I find social situations tiring but I do enjoy going out with friends very much. I don’t give a damn what the DSM-IV has to say about my way of thinking, just cuz the rest of the world thinks a certain way doesn’t mean that I have a mental illness. What if the rest of the world is just dumb? I could say everyone with IQ below 134 was mentally retarded, I mean, who’s setting the standard here?

Anyway back to the topic. I’ve recently developed a model of judging females for partner compatibility and it seemed there were four most vital characteristics that were absolutely essential. I’m going to see if I can write up some sort of scoring sheet for this, heh.


~Jeffrey's Type of Girl~

This scoring sheet consists of the following THREE sections:

Section One: Key Characteristics /60 (must pass)
Section Two: Racial Requirements /-- (must pass)
Section Three: Bonus Points /40

Total Score is out of 100.


SECTION ONE – KEY CHARACTERISTICS (60 marks – must pass)
Section one is a must-pass component. Failure to score at least 50% in EACH SECTION is an automatic FAIL. The four must-have characteristics are:

A) Commitment /15
My type of girl knows how to get things done. She diligently works towards her uni degree/does well at her job and does her share of chores in the household. She’s well organised and keeps to her dates and appointments. I can’t stand people who can’t get things done. I’d rather be single than be together with some lazy-ass, no matter how well she does in the other sections.

B) Easy-going/fun /15
I like a girl that can have some fun. I realise that I am a med student and that by definition restricts my ability to enjoy myself but that doesn’t mean that I don’t like to have fun. I want someone who I can just hang out with like I do with friends, maybe go to a bubble tea or arcade (I know, Asian of me ><), and just enjoy each other’s company. Similar interests do help in this area I suppose. I could never date someone who takes things too seriously. Sure, study and work are important but that doesn’t mean it has to dominate your life.

C) Personality /15
I want someone who can relate to me on the same level. Our opinions on everything don’t have to be the same but fundamentally we have similar priorities in life. I guess I haven’t really sorted out what I want in life so this expectation is a bit silly but when I do find out what I want, I would want someone who shared this vision.

D) Quiet type /15
This one might seem a bit like an odd one but for me it’s actually quite important. I can’t keep up with conversation for extended periods of time, nor can I handle loud places like bars or clubs. My type of girl would be quite happy to chill at the local library or café rather than go out to those loud places and get drunk. I also can’t stand people who don’t shut up. I don’t mind having talkative people as friends, but for a partner, it’s a definite NO.

SECTION ONE TOTAL: /60



SECTION TWO – RACIAL REQUIREMENTS (must pass)
Failure to meet the racial requirements results in automatic disqualification.

Asian /--
Must be at least half asian. No alternative.

SECTION TWO: PASS / FAIL



SECTION THREE – BONUS POINTS (40 marks)
The following traits are not mandatory, but you’ll receive bonus points for the following:

A) Looks /10
Heh, let’s be honest, looks don’t really matter but they’re always nice to have ^^; I like long hair, a nice smile, slender figure (but not anorexic), and cute characteristics in general. In terms of dress I’d rather have someone who was more on the casual side. Glasses are cute, too 8D

B) Similar interests /10
Having a girl who’s into the same stuff as me would be nice. Manga, anime, DDR, games, mah-jong, etc.

C) Vegetarian diet /5
Makes things easier in the kitchen.

D) University degree /5
Either studying towards one or has one already.

E) IQ = 100+ /5
Just so they can function around the same level as me. I don’t like dumb people, but I can put up with them.

F) Age /5
Preferably she’s the same age as me or slightly younger. I’m not sure if I’d be comfortable dating someone older than me *is slightly old-fashioned* xD

SECTION THREE TOTAL: /40


TOTAL SCORE /100%


SCORING
How did you go?

below 50% (FAIL): Would not consider dating
50-65% (PASS): Would be mildly interested
65-80% (MERIT): Would be interested
85%+ (DISTINCTION): Would probably ask you out if I knew you and were single

Don’t ask me how the scoring works, it’s just an arbitrary number really. I wouldn’t expect anyone to score above 85% on this thing (assuming you scored this properly) but if they did I’d be quite interested in meeting such a person if they did =P Otherwise I hoped you found this entry at least slightly entertaining and worth the read, again apologies if I offended anyone in writing this.

Unfamiliar territory.

Unfamiliar people.

Uncertain where to go.

Uncertain what to do.

Uncertain what to expect.

Uncertain what’s expected of me.

Why I’m doing this I’m not even sure. Perhaps if I had considered my career options better I’d not be in this situation, but I’m not turning back now. I guess it’s normal to feel a bit disorientated on the first day of clinical attachments and I can only hope that things get better, ‘cause if they don’t, it’s going to be a long and dreary six weeks of hell. I don’t like unfamiliarity. I feel so powerless when I don’t know how things work or what systems are in place, and combined with the constant fear of getting lost I had a pretty rough day today. Added on are the simple tasks of everyday living that become so much harder simply because things are so much easier back home. I guess you could say I’m a guy who hates change, and it takes me time to settle into a new environment. Yeah, that’s just one thing I guess you could call my weakness. I just fall into a routine every day to the point I don’t have to think about anything, and when things change I suddenly have to think about the things that I previously took for granted and have to rethink things through. Such thought processes drain me mentally and I just feel so tired at the end of a day like this one. Especially since I just got to Hamilton yesterday and still haven’t figured everything out.

Today I was introduced to one of my consultants but I didn’t get to see any patients with him since he was busy for most of the morning. Fair enough, I suppose. But what made it worse was that my afternoon placement didn’t happen either since the team was out doing some training. I’m actually attached to two clinical teams, one community psych team that deals with patients in the community in (what I think is) an outpatient setting and in the afternoon I spend time with the Crisis Assessment Team that receives cases from the community and GP’s and deals with them on a case-by-case basis, referring or triaging them as they see fit. But hey, both of them had their things to do so I grabbed lunch in town (the community clinic is conveniently close to a nice vegetarian cafe I know), went back to the hospital and bugged some people on one of the pysch wards to ask them if any patients were being seen in the afternoon. Unfortunately I couldn’t find any patients to see there either (although one nice registrar showed me around, which was really awesome of him), so I just went home and hit the books. Oh yeah, I should mention, interspersed within the events of the day were numerous episodes of me getting lost in both the hospital and the clinic and once I was faced with the response “Will you buy me lunch if I do?” when asking for directions to my consultant’s office from one annoying lady =.= geez, some people really know who they can pick on. Just because I’m at the bottom of the food chain at the moment doesn’t mean you can give me shit, because I’m climbing up, and I’m going to get up there.

I sure hope tomorrow will be a better day. I want to fill in my logbook with cases as soon as I can and get all those goddamn boxes ticked so I won’t have to worry about them later when I’m stressing about CAT presentations and all those summative assessments that come at the end of the run. My consultant at the community clinic seems nice enough though, and he looked after me pretty well considering how busy he was today. I met the Crisis team briefly in the morning but they didn’t seem to know what to do with me since the consultant was away so I just pretty much sat there and watched. They were really busy, too. Seems as though there’s a shortage of psychiatrists (or just too many mad people, heh) and I’m not surprised the medical school is trying to bribe us med students with pizza lunches (we had one before starting our wards) to encourage us to specialise in their field. At least they had vegetarian pizzas there, so I’m not complaining.

I wonder what the easiest way to get internet access in my room would be. I’m considering getting a 3G Vodafone mobile broadband USB stick for my lappy so I don’t have to go to the commons every time I want to use the net. They close at like 5 which is kinda annoying since a lot of my internet use would be during the evening when I’m doing my research/surfing/msning so it would be really good if I could get it in my room. $79 for internet for 6 weeks seems a bit expensive but the USB stick might come in handy later in case I ever have to use it again. Just have to top it up I guess. Apart from having no internet my room is actually pretty nice for a free accommodation. I’m surprised the university have actually gone out of their way to provide us with a place like this since they normally don’t give us anything for free except our coursebooks and lab manuals at the beginning of the year. Normally it’s sort of like “we expect all med students to be at location xxx 15 minutes after class.” They will say “students are expected to organise their own transport to the venue” but in reality what they mean is this:

-“We expect you to either own a car or have your parents that can drive you.”
-“You won’t be able to use Auckland’s transport system because its shit and the place you need to be isn’t covered by the buses or trains anyway.”
-“If you have friends that can car pool with you but they’re only on their restricted we encourage you to break the law and make them take you anyway if that’s the only way you can get there.”

Meh, enough trolling for tonight, time to get some work done. Sayonara~

lol, I actually meant to post this 2 days ago but I realised the library and info commons close at 5 and I was out all day yesterday and too late to go down and post it on Thursday (I typed it on my laptop). The info commons are actually completely shut off during the weekend and I had a bit of an adventure this morning trying to find out where the after-hours entrance to the library was. I actually did go and buy a mobile broadbrand stick from the warehouse yesterday but the simcard that came with it was faulty =.= so I'm hoping to go back to them today to get that sorted out. Turns out that Facebook is blocked on the DHB computers (unsurprisingly) so I won't be on that until I get my mobile broadband up and running.

btw I thought I'd post some pics of my room at Hilda Ross House. Really good for free accommodation =D

I don't know what some people have against the way I dress, act, or do things in life, and honestly I don't care. But when these people act on these things it really gets on my nerves, 'cause I'm not like that at all. I guess people who don't know me could easily pass me off as looking as your typical troublemaker who pops up in the news all the time and is generally on the wrong side of the law. And they sure as hell aren't afraid to act on these stereotypes. At least the checkout supervisor at Pak'n'Save at Mt Albert wasn't, anyway. Hell, getting pulled up for stealing stuff seriously goddamn offends me especially since they didn't have any solid evidence to prove such an outrageous claim. So I let them know I was offended, and made sure they realised I'm not a guy that does that shit. The first thing I did when they pulled me away from my friends and into the room full of pictures of people who'd stolen stuff was empty the contents of my pockets onto the table and was going to empty my bag as well but they told me to 'hold it' and 'don't go so quickly'. Hell I was pissed. If being accused of stealing wasn't enough, patronising me and trying to assure me that what they were doing was 'store policy' or some shit wasn't going to make things any better. So I let them interrogate me for a few minutes and apparently the lady had "THOUGHT" she had seen me slip some of those multivitamin things into my pocket when I hadn't even touched the things. Sure, I was near them with my friends for a while, (explaining to the others about how the pills actually killed you rather than helped you if you didn't need them) but they'd be hard pressed to find any evidence at all that I'd taken anything. In spite of this the manager dude asked the lady to get a bottle of what she'd thought I'd taken and she pretty much picked one up at random and gave it to him. I volunteered to let them search me but they politely declined, saying I should empty the contents of my belongings on my own. I guess that's to cover their ass in case I sue their faces for harrassment 'cause it's my word against theirs if I end up complaining to the authorities. Either that old bitch had goddamn lied or she had a mental condition which made her hallucinate (in which case I'd be more than happy to see her on my psych attachment and take a good, long history from her) but I'm thinking it's the former. I understand that thievery is quite a problem around stores like those and I respect their procedures for going about the issue, but pulling up innocents like me on mere suspicion is just wrong. If you have an issue with the way I dress, just say it to my face instead of accusing me of doing shit I'd never done. I'm sure the first thing they saw in me the second I walked into the store was a typical rebellious teen who does drugs and alcohol and is a general burden on society. Never mind that I'm studying to become a doctor and that I'll be most likely be practicing in New Zealand where there's a shortage of them cuz we're losing all our graduates to Aussie and other overseas places because New Zealand underpays their professional workforce. Never mind that when that lady grows old and retires that I'm the one going to be paying the government in taxes for her pensions and her expensive medical treatments later on. Why the hell would I go out of the way so much to get some tablets that are going to kill myself anyway? Stealing is harder than buying stuff (in New Zealand, anyway) and if I was going to steal something it would probably be something actually useful in some way, shape or form. Not that I would steal anything, but just saying. Anyway, enough of that. /BIG RANT

Annoying people aside, the past few days have been pretty fun, and it's because of days like those that I enjoy the lifestyle in Auckland so much. Even if the Lantern Festival was just a sea of people eating overpriced, oily, fattening foods and wasting money on similarly overpriced Chinese merchandise it was fun because it gave you an excuse to hang out with friends when otherwise you'd be stuck at home doing the things you were supposed to be doing (ie. study). Oh wait, I'm only seeing it that way because I've started uni already. Nevermind. But still, it was fun. Even if I was dragged away from my friends by a certain someone very early on *cough*.

I experienced the thrills of a laserstrike for the first time yesterday for Shaochen's 21st birthday gathering and I would definitely play again if I had the chance. Not that I'm any good at it, but I at least know how the game works so next time I don't completely suck. At least my score improved with successive games, which was a little encouraging (even if I was always last xD). Gets really tiring though, my legs still ache this morning from all that running around. Afterwards we had lunch at a cheap Chinese takeaway and went to his house to prepare for the evening barbecue at Cornwall Park. All in all, it was a great 21st gathering filled with good times, but was also kinda sad since it was probably the last time I would be seeing my med school friends for a long time. I sure hope I'll find some people who I can hang with in Hamilton, otherwise it's going to be a long six weeks.

I'm not sure how I'm going to spend this Sunday today. My parents were here last night and were going to some event in Auckland with Katherine so I've got the day pretty much free (hence why I've decided to blog this morning) although I'm probably meant to be doing some study of some sort. Weather outside looks alright so I might head off and wander town by myself for a bit after the laundry's done. Heh, just because I've started uni already doesn't mean I can't have a little time to myself now and then, right?

So uni's started for me already and it's been depressing having to constantly tell people that you won't be free on x day because you have uni, then having to explain that 4th year med starts 3 weeks before everyone else. I wouldn't mind starting uni early if everyone else was in the same boat, but I guess that's just another case of "it's fine so long as everyone else has to suffer like me and I'm not alone" kind of thing and that's just not how life goes. Ranting aside, I did have an enjoyable last few days of holiday hanging out with friends, playing Starcraft and watching anime so it's not as though I haven't had time to do the things I like. It's just never enough sometimes, but I don't regret going back home because the work experience was great (not to mention the $ ^^;). Next summer I have plans to go overseas with my family so I don't think I'll be working again anyway. It's been a while since I've had a holiday overseas and something tells me I'll need it after finishing 4th year... >< This year's going to be a challenging one, and just one flick through the course info booklet was enough to tell me so.

The first week of uni started off with two jam-packed-crammed days full of rheumatology and locomotor stuff that's completely new to me and they go through the stuff so fast we're like halfway through the coursebook already. Fortunately I don't have my loco attachment til like June so I'll have time to get to grips with this stuff (hopefully). The rest of the 3 days were spent learning about the culturally appropriate management of Maori and Pacific Island patients =.=. It was like Maori Health Week all over again, although this time at least we didn't have to draw posters. But they still made us learn Te Reo. And go to a Marae 30 minutes out of the city in South Auckland where no buses go (fortunately I had transport). Not that I mind having an easy three days at uni but hearing all this talk about cultural sensitivity and how we should be aware of Maori's values and beliefs really annoys me when that's the only culture they care about when there are so many other cultures in New Zealand. Doesn't New Zealand pride itself in being a cultural diverse country? What about MY culture? If Maori are entitled to culturally appropriate management then shouldn't I be, as well? Not that I identify myself with any culture, anyway. When you look Chinese yet were brought up in a Westernised environment, have relatives in Indonesia yet don't speak Indonesian, have relatives in Canada yet speak with a strong Kiwi accent, it's not long before you feel that you don't belong anywhere at all, least of all, in your own country (which one is it, anyway?) and to be honest, nobody gives a damn because they think you're just another goddamn asian. Fortunately I can relate to asian culture (or at least what I think it is) relatively well and even though I don't use chopsticks perfectly, speak any asian language or play chinese chess, I'm still quite satisfied with being identified as an asian and I can live with that. I understand that culture is something that gives individuals resilience and being close to one's culture can give people greater ability to cope with the many of life's struggles and I believe that's an important part of being an individual. So what about the Maori? Well I do believe their culture should be acknowledged as part of their overall well-being but I just wish that other cultures were considered as well. If I had a Chinese name I'm sure I'd be just as insulted if someone doesn't even try and pronounce it as would a Maori person. I think cultural health should be taught as a whole and perhaps greater emphasis on the cultures most relevant to New Zealand. Yes, that does include Asians and if they want to benefit from all the dollars us Asians are bringing into the country through tourism and international student schemes then I believe they have a responsibility to treat us properly. Learning about other cultures is actually pretty interesting and it's really neat to see how others get around life and the reasons for doing the things the way they do. But when the sole focus is just on one culture it begins to get a bit one-sided and I just lose interest after a while. I hope I don't come across as racist or anything, I do appreciate that Maori are a population with high health needs and yes, they are entitled to quality health services but that doesn't mean I'm obliged to learn their language or anything like that.

Sigh, I hope I don't get in trouble for voicing my opinions so publicly but that's just how I've been feeling for the past three days. I guess the lack of having my own culture to relate to kind of attenuates my annoyance, having to learn so much about other people's cultures while barely having anything of the sort yourself kind of hurts after three days. I guess it's the same as I felt over the duration of Maori Health week two years ago, although back then having a solid self-identity as a person wasn't something I was too concerned about back then. Sometimes I wonder if I'm allowed to be proud to be Asian when I know so little about the way Asians do things compared to people who have been brought up in that sort of environment. It wasn't til I went up to Auckland that I had Asian friends who I could relate to on the same level (my parents were sort of Asian, but not really) and up til then most of my friends were from much different upbringings to mine. Not that I can't get along with people from different backgrounds, but it's just nice to have someone you can talk to on the same level as yourself and know that the things you say actually mean something to the other person. In essence, I think that cultural sensitivity is simply acknowledging that other people have reasons for doing the things the way they do. Even if you do things a little bit differently (and you probably think you're doing it better), I feel that respecting their way of doing things and acknowledging that it means something to them is all you need to communicate on the same level as someone with a different backgrouind than yours.

So here I am again, back in the big city. Although I regard Auckland as my home now I still feel as if it's missing something that I feel I should have for a place to be my home. Parents? More friends? More familiarity with the area? I don't know. It sure does feel a lot better than Rotorua though, despite my parents being there and my high school friends and the house I spent a large proportion of my earlier days in. Perhaps I'm expecting too much from this place when it's already given me everything it has to offer, and I'm taking everything I have for granted. Yeah ,that's probably the case. As it has been many times before.

So I ended up spending the past week including Auckland Anniversary weekend here with my parents and Nee-san (yeah don't give me weird looks for implying that four people stayed in a 2 bedroom apartment, because that's exactly what happens every time they visit). It's been a while since the four of us were together so we did spend quite a lot of time together which was nice, even if I wasn't able to spend as much time with friends as I could have. We went ice skating and bowling on Saturday and spent Sunday at Mission Bay. During the weekdays Nee-san had work so instead I spent the time sorting out my new computer which I ordered the first day I got back ^^;. Feels so nice playing SC2 lag-free on my Lutaria (yes, I gave my new comp a name. What? don't give me weird looks =.= I name all my stuff, live with it), it feels so much nicer doing things on a desktop rather than my chunky Luna (my toshiba satellite P200), the environment is so more customisable with the keyboard separate from the monitor and it clears my desk from cables that are now sitting tucked at the back of my box on the ground.

Here are the specs of my new machine:
LUTARIA
Intel Core i5-2500 CPU @ 3.30GHz (Sandy Bridge ftw =D)
Sapphire Radeon HD6850 1GB GDDR5 Graphics Card
Kingston 6GB 1600MHz C8 DDR3 HyperX Non-ECC CL8 (8-8-8-24)
Western Digital Black Edition 1TB 64M Cache 3.5" SATA3 HDD
Gigabyte P67A-UD3 LGA 1155 Motherboard
Cooler Master 650W Power Supply
Cooler Master Elite 430 Mid Tower ATX Case

I also scored a LG 20" LED monitor and a Microsoft Headset off my nee-san who was upgrading hers. Altogether my setup cost me about $1500 which seemed reasonable for a mid-range machine. I like to think of it as a late Christmas present for myself for all the work I did over the summer ^^. I still need to sell off the 500W power supply that came with the case on trademe.

So that's my week in Auckland in summary. I won't say any more about my time in Rotorua because there simply isn't much there to talk about. Recently I've just been staying home and taking it easy since my legs are still a bit sore from ice-skating. Yesterday I browsed the numerous anime and Japanese dramas I got from Masaya but haven't really gotten really into any of the series yet, although Kaze no Stigma seems pretty good. Perhaps I'll watch more of that today if nothing else interesting is happening today.

So it's been about a month since I've posted on here, and it seems my blog gets more attention when I -don't- post anything for a period of more than more than 2 weeks than when I'm say, blogging every few days. It's hard to tell how many people actually read this since I never hear anything about my blog both on the web or irl unless it's to ask "why haven't you been posting lately Jeffrey?" According to the stats tab I have approximately 30 followers but I don't entirely trust it since I often access my blog from multiple places and all that traffic could simply have been me checking to see if anybody's been leaving any comments and sometimes reading over my own posts again. I'm surprised at the unexpectedly large number of people who actually read this thing since I feel my life isn't particularly interesting, and less so with me being in Rotorua and all.

So what's happened in my life in the past month? Well if you must know I got the OK from my dad to put together a computer for him and I spent most of the Christmas break doing that. By that, I mean researching parts, searching TradeMe for them, and waiting for them to arrive while reading up on things I should know before assembling a computer. Annoyingly, I spent about a week running into various problems which sure as hell tested my patience. I initially was working with some old parts I was trying to salvage from dad's old pc but it turned out that there was very little I could actually use from it so ended up having to order new ones. The only thing I managed to reuse was his old IDE hard drive which the new motherboard still supported, which was good since it meant I could keep all dad's files. Initially I thought I'd be able to use the same case but I painfully discovered that it wasn't ATX format so I had to order a new one. In the meantime I thought I'd assemble the rig without a case just to see if all the parts worked, and they did, after many many attempts of reseating the graphics card which I suspected to be a bit faulty.

The big problem I ran into was when the case did arrive, and after putting all the parts in, realising the graphics card was playing up again. Thinking to reuse the same method to get the card to go again, I reseated the card a couple of times, and after a couple of tries a huge spark exploded in my face and I immediately realised I'd broken something. And yeah, I did. The CPU fan stopped going and the mobo was making high pitched beeps meaning the CPU was overheating so I turned it off quick. Defeated, I sent the rig into town to get it fixed - at a cost of $90/hr for labour I was lucky they managed to find out the problem (broken motherboard) within just an hour. They ordered in a new mobo and graphics card for me and got everything up and running as smoothly as it should have been had the graphics card not been faulty. Argh, bung graphics card ended up ruining my first computer building experience =( but some good lessons learned for my next computer building project which will be for myself when I get back to Auckland. Sure, getting set back $200 for something silly like that hurts (I had to pay for the parts I'd damaged, of course) but if you think about how much you'd spend for a computer that good - 2.67GHz x2 CPU, 2GB RAM, 512GB dedicated graphics RAM, 160MB HDD - being able to play Starcraft2 for that much isn't too bad. Of course, dad did pay for most of it but it's his computer anyway lol.

Work's been pretty steady with not too much happening but I've been kept quite busy which has been good. I think I've made a bad name for myself among a few of the patients here for missing their veins for venepuncture. There was this one guy who raged pretty bad at me for missing him twice but it's not my fault if his veins are crap. My hit ratio's gone up to around ~90% now so I'll only miss, say, 1 in 10 patients or maybe 2 max on a bad day.

Ah, dad wants to head home now, I'll continue on with this post tomorrow (no internet at the farmhouse T.T). Laptop's running outta battery too. Sigh, last day of work tomorrow. Can't wait to go back to Auckland next Tuesday.

One must have patience. And a lot of it. One of my more recent jobs has been to go through some old handwritten patient card notes and transfer the data into the electronic medical database. As I've mentioned previously, I liked to think that patience was one of my better qualities but this job's really testing it. Seriously, what the hell is the point of writing notes if no-one can even read them?? Might as well save the time (and a few trees) and not bother, if your handwriting's going to suck so damn bad. /rant

So I realise I haven't really been updating this blog as much as I should be, I guess I just haven't been bothered lately. Not that anything interesting has really been happening in my life worth mentioning. Work goes on, days off are spent at home with parents, and boredom slowly accumulates. Three weeks of this and I'm beginning to feel the boredom biting at my sanity. I should probably get out more and stuff, but the city life in Rotorua just isn't the same as in Auckland, and most of the time my parents have plans of their own for me (such as helping out with visitors, of which we've had plenty over the past few weeks), so that makes things difficult. A significant portion of my time is spent attempting to play SC2 at 1 fps with my friends in Auckland on my 3 year old laptop, which usually ends up in utter fail with me lagging everyone else in the game and generally having very poor quality games. My dad gave me $400 to upgrade his 8 year old computer at home and I've ordered a few parts which should be here by Christmas, so hopefully I'll be able to have a decent game on that. I'm still contemplating on the parts I should get for my own computer I'll be building next year and hunting down deals online. According to one of my friends, $1000 is about the optimal amount to spend on building a computer.

Work's been meh. Still poking people's arms with needles and doing the occasional BP or CVD assessment while my boss piles me with the monotonous computer work amongst other stuff. It's been a while since I've actually missed a vein but I somehow managed to miss 2 today for some strange reason. Perhaps the novelty of phlebotomy's beginning to wear off and I'm starting to lose interest in what I'm doing. Guess I'm that type of person who's not easily interested in things, and gets bored with things easily. Ah, I need to find something to amuse me again, life's just getting too boring.

At the moment one of my Dad's late friend's wife's yoga teacher from Germany is staying at our house as part of her tour of New Zealand. I don't really mind having random visitors in my home but I won't deny that things are easier to do when they're not around. For example, playing DDR. Our visitor is staying downstairs at the moment so I'll certainly cause a lot of noise for her if I play at my usual time before breakfast. And since there's only one TV in the house that just means one extra person I'm sharing it with too. I would get a TV for myself and play in the basement but since I'm only home for one quarter of the year I'm not sure it's worth the investment. That's one annoying thing about living in two homes rather than one, you can't furnish your place as well as you want to since you're only getting to use it for a limited portion of the year. There are lots of things I'd like to get for my room, like maybe a surround sound system, a big corner desk, a nice desktop computer (I'll be getting that soon) to list a few. I know I'm just being picky and I should just appreciate the fact that I do have my own place to stay in during uni (I do) but I guess I just like to enjoy myself too much sometimes. Anyway I'm going way off topic.

So yeah, we've got this visitor and Mum and Dad are going out of their way to show them around a bit. Which means they tend to leave me alone more, which is one advantage of having her around. Yeah I know I should make the most of my time with my parents but I do like my alone time too and sometimes they do invade into that. I also don't really like gardening that much. Oh, it looks like I'm heading off now. I'm still at work atm and we're gonna take a patient to the hospital in Rotorua cuz he's poor and doesn't have any money for transport and my dad's just being kind. Sigh, the demographics of this place sometimes make me wonder what these people do with their lives...