lunar.soliloquy

Two to go. Yeah, that's right, I'm talking about god damn exams. I don't understand what making people memorise large amounts of useless information aims to achieve but I'm just going to play by the rules and be over with it. Who am I to question authority, anyway. It's just part of being a student.

I realise with all the study that's been happening I haven't really been posting much here but nothing's really been happening apart from that. I guess there was Armageddon so I suppose I could write a bit about that. Yeah, I did the unthinkable thing for a med student around exam time and actually took a day off to go out to that thing. I guess part of me wanted to rebel against the whole "omg exams are in a week and I need to keep my 8.3333 GPA" feeling I always get when I'm around other med students as well as wanting to see the cosplays, overpriced merchandise etc. but overall I can't say it was a day well spent, to be perfectly honest.

Being so crowded (as usual) with endless mobs of people was in itself enough to put me off from the event even though I sort of expected it since I'm really not comfortable with large numbers of people. I don't know what it is, I guess I just really like my space for some reason. Yeah, I know its a bit stupid but that's just how I feel. It's just really hard to go places with so many people around and if you want to go anywhere you're more often than not finding yourself pushing against the current and sometimes not going anywhere at all. And I guess the noise, too. Can't stand the noise, either.

And now I'm starting a new paragraph so this whole post doesn't look like a massive wall of text. Yeah, I'm really tired this evening so I can't really think straight and I'm pretty much typing my thoughts as they come to me. Yeah ok, back to ranting about armageddon. The selection of merchandise wasn't particularly good this year either. I only bought a pair of Rukia gloves and a FMA necklace, both which I could've probably gotten on TradeMe for the same price. They did have some nice swords, and sword umbrellas which were pretty cool but I was more looking for 'functional' stuff like stationery, t-shirts, posters, etc. which I didn't particularly find. Probably because I didn't look hard enough cuz of all the people. Oh well. I guess such things can't be helped. I do wish I could've gone to see the final cosplay show on Monday though, apparently it was really good. It sucks so bad how every year Armageddon is always neck in neck with exam period and the only was I can go to it is if I forfeit a day of study and I don't believe I should have to be stuck with that decision. The organisers should appreciate that many otaku are also students who actually want to have futures outside Xbox and Playstation and that as much as they love anime, manga, games and movies, they also want to have a career and a life.

Stupid stuff like that makes me feel that I'm getting too old for this anime/manga/gaming shizz. Sure, I love playing Magic: the gathering, my nintendo DS, Wii and Starcraft2 but when I go casually to an event like a casual MTG draft I find that the culture there is somewhat elitist it takes the fun out of doing those aforementioned things. Even playing SC2 online is like that. I guess it takes time to get good at those sorts of things and when you're a student with assignments to do and exams to prepare for you don't have that sort of luxury. Perhaps I ought to find different things to distract myself with. Should go back to reading books or something.

Ah well I guess such things can't be helped. I want to enjoy what's left of my student life (ie, not much) but at the same time I don't want to waste time doing things that won't get me anywhere in life. After 20 years I still haven't been in any sort of relationship and nor do I foresee myself being in one if I continue doing things the way I am. Not that I give a damn if there's no-one in this world for me. I admit, I'm not someone who anyone would ever want to be in a relationship with anyway, not the way I am at the moment. Perhaps when/if I become a doctor at least someone might be interested in me for the money LOL. Pretty sad, huh. Haha, now I know I'm really in a shit mood. Nah I usually try not to beat myself up too much about such things but sometimes I can't help it, especially after sitting an exam, being all tired and cbf doing anything. I really need to sleep. Duno why I wasted this evening trying to format my blog and realising how goddamn complicated XML is. I'll leave that to another day. For now I'll just use the default tools and skins, sigh...how generic.